To My World...

Ma and Baba,

I know you will never read this...never.. and even if you read you will consider it as trash as i think while typing..but i want to say something here...

Today, it's your 28th Marriage Anniversary....You and Baba look great together..yeah i know that's a cliched expression...but then truth is truth and limited for the way they are expressed...

You both have taught me to "Live"...I am proud of who you are to me...but and here on this note I start...

Ma&Baba:

• Why do you go overboard when it comes to "Relatives"...why is it, that they expect you to visit their place everytime you are here in kolkata, irrespective of the reasons of your coming here, which primarily includes, Health reasons.

• Why do they have to bother you so much with their fake botheration??? and again you get into that.... Ma&Baba: Health problem happens at any age and at any time and yes, offcourse there are ways to get well perfectly and soon.

Ma

• I am really pissed off on this...i see your dressing style being influenced by some of "The Relatives"...Ma, i won't have bothered about it a bit if that would have been in a positive way..but Ma their choice SUCKS...and i just can't believe when you say the other piece in the shop was 150-200 rs. more than the shitty crap you have got, i know, it's just because you have "Their" consensus on buying it???..I am not accepting this....

To this let me tell you..your collection has gone way too drab, LS and uninteresting and this i am saying not because my choice have changed....i still love your earlier collection way more than the things that you have bought recently....this is getting sick MA....and i know...this is that "Evil-Influence" on you....

• I have started loving you all the more for all your funny and non-sensical blabbering... then i realise the meaning of what "they" said.."Like mother, like daughter"... :D

Baba:

• Yes, you have grown old..old enough to authoritatively lead a peaceful and non-hectic life... i know your operation had been painful, more than that your patience had been tried. when it came to physical concerns you were tied to certian limitations , ...but baba, you are fine now..absolutely fine...and you really need to enjoy these peaceful days...please Baba..dn't give up...this is the time to live and be happy...i know you have your own concerns and if i say today, "I am Here"..i know i am simply being modest and I know some thing goes well when it is conveyed without being "said".

• Baba, i am still proud of your choice and collection and at times the way you dampen ma's enthusiasm to visit all those "Relatives's" place just to hear stories of pain and the following melodramas.

well, now a BIG point to be made:

I will get Married. To whom and when, i am as unsure and clueless as you are. okk...some of my reactions to my mother's over-used dialogues:

• Yes, i have many friends...but no, i dn't have any "Special Friend".
• I go to watch movies, shopping all alone and believe me no one accompanies me. If some does, they are all girls.
• I drink coffee and "Liquor" with boys, YES....but believe me none of them have any intention to marry me and i respect their feeling.
• Yes Ma, as you say, "I am pure waste in not managing to have a boyfriend after studying in a co-ed school and university". Well Ma, i take a chance here and say "The blooming days are in the college may be, and i wasted another three years of my life studying in a "Girl's College".
• Yes Ma, i know i am short and fat, i eat too much and therefore no one will marry me, and more if i continue eating rice four times a day... :D
• And please do not go by "The Relatives" consensus while choosing the "Man" for me... "your relatives" might like him...but...
• i know "you have not many but only one child...and to see her happy is what you wish"...but for that do not rely on me..i cannot make you happy on that..you take the initiative and you will be happier"... :P

okk..enough of complains....but may be i am the happiest person to have you as my parents, for the way you people have allowed me to be whatever i am, for teaching me the ways to face the world, though silently, for agreeing to what was good and disagreeing to what was not so good.

and last but not the least...after all these years of staying in two different and far away cities, i have still not come to terms with bidding you the good-bye while seeing you off on your journey to the home-town...i still feel bad and sad...but again may be you never taught me to be "weak" and have taught me to accept the reality and the practical norms as it were and that too with a smile...

I always love the way you appreciate any thing and everything i give you and the smile on getting those bouquet of red and white flowers...thats what you both are to me..."Love" and "Peace"....

Love you ..be the way you are forever... :D

Weird

Something is wrong....something is bothering me...i am restless...

But not getting to figure out exactly wat it is... :(

Fat, Fatter, Fattest...Fart

Its not that these things are new to me...but still i find it difficult to get along...

Being optimistic always doesn't help...need to accept the fact...

I know its bad rather sad to see things turning up in a certain way...but...

Fart..Crap....

I am putting on with every passing seconds nowadays. Believe me...

Nothing seems to be of any help...30 minutes of swimming, trying to avoid my favourite "bhaat", trying not to stare at the gamla full of rosogolla, trying not to go to that "sinful" Barista..even if...sticking to iced lemon tea, a full-stop on drinking....

I am tired...I am giving up...almost....a few more days..and i am sure i will give up... :(..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO..i can't........

Is it Thyroid, Uric Acid, AGE, being Hangla and Petuk, lack of self control and determination??????????? WAT IS IT??????????

I look HUGEEEEE (girth-wise)...because i am not even the exact 5" and i weigh tonssssss.............more than HUGE, its like "A clad BALL rolling"....

what...if!!!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be? If is not applicable

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be? I have people around with whom I want to b with and all together having fun

3. Whose butt would you like to kick? My own…:O

4. What would you do with a billion dollars? Give up working, travel all around the world, will try to make my parents the happiest with whatever money can do

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend? I think no

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone? Being loved by someone

7. How long would you wait for someone you loved? I dnt know..forever is a word equally vague and clueless

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do? Person who I secretly like is not attached to me…and if ever is attached to someone else…I will cry my heart out and with time, I am sure I will get going…

9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be? Anything for animal and nature

10. What takes you down the fastest? People trying to avoid me by telling lies…

11. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time? In the same old and boring rut

12. What’s your fear? Betrayal, denial, loneliness, fact that people I care for are mortals

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? No one tags me..no one tagged me..i stole this from one blog.. :P

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor? Married and rich…single and rich…money is important

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up? Run to the loo.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick? The one I will love more

17. Would you give all in a relationship? Most of it

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done? Forgive maybe, but will never forget

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship? A relationship may b…but the person has to understand me thoroughly…or else I am happy single…

???!!!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Yes

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Sometime this month

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I liked..its been long that I have written something on paper.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Mutton.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No..

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I think I would be….

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Often.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? I will love

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Corn flakes

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? I need to...

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Ice-creammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm is the word to give me a high

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Feet... :P

14. RED OR PINK? Red

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Fat

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Dida.

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? If they have time..yes

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING ? Blue Jeans, grey and p[ink Floaters

19. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Pink.

20. FAVORITE SMELLS? Anything soothing

21. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I copy pasted from a blog…I like myself…only at times..bouts of hatred surface out.

22. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Swimming.

23. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope.

24. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Dnt remember..some bullshit on some TV channel.

25. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? White tee

26. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer and Winter for reasons different and unique.

27. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? some blogs….

28. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Dnt have one.

29. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Some serial..with mute on.

30. FAVORITE SOUND(S). Water dripping.

31. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Rolling Stones.

32. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Maharashtra

33. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Yes..to suspect things and then see them turning true.

34. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? In a nursing home in Konnagar, Kolkata.

35. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? Day I get to meet the real one…i will update this answer.

Questioning the Self

LAST:
1. Last beverage → Fresh Lime Soda, sweet.
2. Last phone call → Sharmistha
3. Last text message → Kritika.
4. Last song you listened to → Umbrella
5. Last time you cried → Sometime last week

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → Never
7. Been cheated on → yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it → No.
9. Lost someone special → Yes.
10. Been depressed → Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up → Never.

HAVE YOU:
12. Made new friends → Yes.
13. Fallen out of love → No.
14. Laughed until you cried → often.
15. Met someone who changed you → Yes.
16. Found out who your true friends were → Yes, I think.
17. Found out someone was talking about you → Yes.
18. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → Yes.
19. Made the first Move → No.
20. Do you have any pets → Not at present.
21. Do you want to change your name → No.
22. What did you do for your last birthday → Spent with my friends at the office.
23. What time did you wake up today → 5.30 AM.
24. What were you doing at midnight last night → Sleeping.
25. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Good things.
26. Last time you saw your father → 22nd February 2009
27. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Depression.
28. Most visited webpage → http://www.google.com/
29. What's your name → Supriya.
30. Nicknames → Priya, Timo, Moti, Genjo, Panu.
31. Zodiac sign → Sagitarrius.
32. Male or female or transgendered → Female.
33. Elementary → St. Mary’s.
34. Schools → Sacred Heart.
35. Colleges → Banaras Hindu University, Jadavpur University.
36. Hair color → Black
37. Long or short → Short.
38. Height → 5'
39. Do you have a crush on someone? → Not really sure..i think NO.
40. Ever been in love → Yes.
41. Piercings → yes.
42. Tattoos → No.
43. Righty or lefty → Righty.

FIRSTS :
44. First piercing → Ear piercing when I was in std.III.
45. First best friends → Deepti.
46. First sport you joined → Basketball
47. First pet → Tomy.
48. First vacation → Darjeeling.
49. First concert → Birju Maharaj Concert.
50. First crush → Don’t Remember.
51. Eating → I am a big foodie.
52. Drinking → Often.
53. I'm about to → Loose hope.
54. Listening to → sound of the keyboard, colleagues talking over the phone

YOUR FUTURE :
55. Want kids → :O..yes ..may b
56. Want to get married → Yes, I think…but….
57. Careers in mind → Ambitionless..enjoying what I am doing rite now.
58. Lips or eyes → Eyes.
59. Hugs or kisses → hugs primarily, kiss-secondarily.
60. Shorter or taller → Taller.
61. Older or Younger → Younger.
62. Romantic or spontaneous → Neither, I guess.
63. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice stomach
64. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive.
65. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
66. Trouble maker or hesitant → Neither.

HAVE YOU EVER :
67. Kissed a stranger → No.
68. Lost glasses/contacts → no, I dnt have 1.
69. Sex on first date → Never.
70. Broken someone's heart → I think..NO.
71. Had your own heart broken → Yes.
72. Been arrested → No.
73. Turned someone down → Yes.
74. Cried when someone died → Yes.
75. Liked a friend that is a girl → Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
76. Yourself → Partly.
77. Miracles → Happen.
78. Love at first sight → I think is a bit story like concept
79. Heaven → Blue Sky, Peace.
80. Santa Clause → Light in the Dark.
81. Peace in this lifetime → Not sure..really
82. Angels → Miracle.
83. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes..No…May b.
84. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time in the past → Never.
85. You will die Young → I wish.
86. You will end with the one you love and learn to love the one you are with → end with the one i love... but kind of a dream

Me they said...

Well..i took a personality test on similarminds.com and this was interpreted about my personality from my answers to their question.

Stability 56%, results were moderately high, which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness 60%, were moderately high, which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion 30%, were low, which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

Trait snapshot:
Clean, secretive, does not make friends easily, observer, hates large parties, risk averse, perfectionist, reclusive, solitude loving, more practical than abstract, does not like to stand out, high self control, intellectual, mind over heart, very cautious, takes precautions, respects authority, irritable, emotionally sensitive

Somehow i am happy with the result...i have marked their accuracy too.....:P

Disgusting

I feel like scribbling... and I will do so…


Today is my 26th biological birthday, and 25th ,officially. Well…should I consider myself lucky for that…I give a damn….

If asked..wat significant have I done in these 26 years of existence???

NOTHING…is the only answer that comes to my mind…rite now..and probably whenever this question will be asked..

Well…if I really make an effort to jot down….(real effort mind you):

1) Have bugged everyone irrespective of whoever I have known in these years. (They have never enjoyed it really…at times I have enjoyed bugging them, intentionally..at time it was my nature..and therefore it came naturally from me, unintentionally and they were naturally irritated..)…ohh…looks like I cared!!!!!! FART..

2) Have managed to gobble some stupid academic degrees..(does it help in life???)well…first class everytime…without fail…(do I sound like I am proud of those achievements??…yes I am…because I have nothing else to be proud of…)

3) Have managed to go to places for studies u c(Oh studious u mean!!!…and then work…:O…well the list comprises of Hazaribagh, Varanasi, Kolkata and now Mumbai…(So wat is the big deal mam????..nothing man..please note… I am making a list of my achievements..:-)


Achievements that were not welcomed but embraced me…

1) 26…. don’t have a proper, secure and stable professional graph and status..same applies to personal life…..(wooo…u mean ….wanderer????i see it mentioned somewhere else too in this blog.. :O:O) Bull shit..

2) I have not been to my home town almost two years now….( okkk..so that is a point to be proud of!!!!:O…. why don’t I die????a question I often ask myself and people around me also ask…I dnt have an answer to it!!!)FART and FUCK OFF.

3) Have been cheated twice ….crystal clear…3rd is always on the way, I mean u dnt get to see the unseen and can expect anything, rite…….( know wat…i always tried Acting Smart and the bastards were always Smart….)..okk..so being cheated…..an achievement…....so perpetual loss of faith and trust. Have acquired the great caliber to doubt one and all…still get cheated….because have been better still in doubting the wrong person.


Confession on this day..no not resolutions..but I would definitely like doing these..sometime…may be in an year’s time..which would give me an opportunity to jot down some real achievements next year, I guess….(Keeping my fingers crossed)

1) Want to go to Daltonganj..be there….for at least 10 days….come back happy…do something that my parents expect from me..even the other family members…(what they want me to do at present is …GET MARRIED….., well, that’s a different interesting story altogether):D:D

2) Seriously man, high time..a stable professional life…personal, doubtlessly, I look forward to …I need both of that.

Ohhh….a big list of achievements……and stop self pitying and acting as a gyaan paapi….slut …….

My Birthday

Well....to start with, as usual my card validity has expired on 24th November at 23:59hrs. My apology goes to one and all who tried wishing me at the mid-night, might be a very few...but whatever..and whoever.....

Strangely, 1st one to wish me on my b'day was, 160by2.com, i was surprised to see no sender's name along with the message but then realized what it was. second and without fail since last four years Amrita Di...she wishes me without fail and i without fail forget to wish her on her wedding anniversary which falls on the same date.....things remained the same even this year.

I am again dead sure...Satabdi Sengupta and Soma Mukherjee, (well..now that she is Mrs..she has more chores to handle I guess..oohhhh.....as if i care....) these mortals have been taking pleasure in forgetting my birthday since three years now and everytime i remind them they come up with faces and blows of sorry feeling as if my birthday has turned into my death day. well, they sound clear and straight in not giving any excuses..(modest and honest they r u c)...and then dramatics like, " ki kore toke mukh dekhabo", "chi....ki kore bhule gelam....chiiiiiiii" and all those stuff everytime i remind them of the same. well, this time i have given them a reason as to why they cldn't call...but let me tell you ...incoming messages r still free and those r coming in.

If i am not wrong, sarmistha and pallavi will soon follow the league...if not reminded by some other people...i think they will wish me mid way but only if they remember…..

neways..whatever it is....it feels good...

Banashree was the first one to wish me last night.....

Well...improvement..satabdi remembered..she wished me...:D:D:D....not only that..has sent me a bouquet alongwith a teddy......very happy..but teddy ta dekhe ektu maane.....ahem....satabdi..bhalobasssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

acha ..correction..sarmistha has tried calling me up a number of times on my roommate's cell......thankyou..tomakeo bhalobasssssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

pallavi says.....i was suppose to remind her a day before.....so its been my fault that i didnt remind her........i c...

Soma...smartest ass...banashree called her up and reminded her........she messaged me at 2 in the afternoon...

neways....sobai k bhalobasssssssssssssssiiiiiiiiiii

"I"

"I" have come up with something that can be on "About me" on the profile , but i refrain from putting this there, instead i will take this opportunity to flaunt my self and will keep adding to this post as i discover more about myself...::D:D:D:D:D...to start with , as u cn c and i will have ample to prove the first statement , which goes like this ...

1) I am a "megalomaniac"

2) I like walking off the shed, when its raining and its "calf-deep" water, coz, "ankle deep" doesnt make it exciting enough and when its "knee-deep", you have to put in a bit more effort to wade through....so u c .."I" am lazy, lethargic..

3) I make myself sure that i dnt cry while watching the scene in Cinema Paradiso, where Alfredo says a few words to Toto, while he is leaving "Giancaldo", the words are as follows :
" Dont come back, dnt think about us, dnt give into nostalgia, forget us all. Whatever you end up doing, love it, the way you loved the projection booth when you were a little squirt".

and after the scene gets over, i feel a lump down my throat.

4) Of late, i often realise the fact that our parents are mortal being like anybody who leaves for eternal bliss.

5) I love sipping Frappe Hazelnut with a smoke, specially when i am sitting alone in that corner of the Lake Road Barista.

6) i have argued and have been rude to all at some point of time, except for one.

7) Nowadays, i feel like stopping half way while introducing myself to someone, may be because i have lost patience of introducing myself in all these years with the same to say.

8) I enjoy sitting with all those who can talk non-sense for hours uncounted and then can sit fr hours without a word. The best thing neither i nor they feel the urge of speaking or moving on just because silence intervenes, these are the persons whom i call friends. (they also call me the same. i am sure).

9) I was fat and i didnt care, i am fat and i think i care, but i have started loving cheese and butter all the more.

10) I miss my school days, because of the place, i miss my college days because of the hostels, i miss my university days.

11) I love dogs, calf, rabbit and tortoise and poking my friends, pulling other's leg and laughing at myself when the gang does so.

12) I remember walking with the ice cream in hand on a winter night after having a dinner with a few.

13) I like the "Southern Avenue" stretch to Golpark and the lansdowne stretch till Deshapriya park.

14) I love getting up in the morning and evening on a call where in i get to know that there's a get together organised by some at any nearby coffee shop.

15) I love when people give me names and call me by those names.....gejo, gaju, chimp, panu, mota, timo.....anyname......

16) I haven't been to Daltonganj fr almost two years now and i avoid going there, for i still have the habit of expressing.."Everything is Fine with me, I am not sad"..while bidding that good bye even after 10 years of staying away from home, "I really dnt feel fine and feel sad" at that moment..i think even here i understated wat i really feel. ....i feel the same lump down my throat as mentioned in point 3.

17) I love shouting and partying with...as mentioned in point 8

18) I love talking to myself .

19) I like when people about whom i care, scolds me.

20) At times i like the way it is, at times i hate the way it is.

Minima Dark

Back to my old template.......the only reason i think this template supports as in stands as a good enough background for both serious and crappy things......

The one to which i switched over ...seems as if it's only for serious stuffs (as in the look of the template)....i dont blame......

I'm happy.....:D:D:D